I’ve been very busy!
So in March I thought up the idea that I wanted to help women pregnant again after loss and I wanted to do this by giving comfort boxes with items to help reduce anxiety. Back then it was just an idea, a thought. I usually come up with crazy ideas that don’t seem to pull through or have legs. I’m not the most confident person – I suffer anxiety and sometimes I lack self belief so I just don’t pursue things.
This was different though. I have so much passion for this. My pregnancy with Willow was so tough on me and it’s because of my previous loss, constantly nagging me in my head. I decided I just had to give this a go and went along to see an advisor. I then had to find a team of people – another stumbling block. So I always worry about things like this – it’s sort of like when you’re a bit worried about organising a party as you worry people might not come along. I worried I wouldn’t find a group of people as passionate as I am, but the fact was I can’t make a charity on my own.
After reaching out on Social Media, I found my 6 Trustees that have joined me in creating Willow’s Rainbow Box. 6 people who wanted to make this project happen. After that I really had to stop and go – wow this is actually happening!
Fast forward to now, we have held our first AGM, created and signed a constitution. I have had meetings with midwives and other professionals. We have created a Twitter presence with #RainbowBabyHour. When I think about it I am amazed how my one idea back in March has turned into this amazing project.
It’s amazing, yes, but it also makes me sad that I was ever in the situation that led me to this idea. Not being pregnant with Willow, but the fact it was a pregnancy after loss. I think about this project and I think I am giving my lost baby a legacy. I’m giving willow a legacy as my rainbow baby, my ray of hope and I’m giving my lost baby a legacy as without them my Organisation wouldn’t exist. I feel like I’m part of something so big – helping to raise awareness and get people talking about baby loss.
I am so excited for the future of Willow’s Rainbow Box. I have chosen to not return to the working world until Willow is older, but I am in no way not working – this project is my full time job now, as well as looking after Willow. I feel so lucky to be able to do this. I never thought I wouldn’t go back to work – but the opportunity to create something new in the world that helps people and to be able to be with my daughter in the early years makes me incredibly happy.